RECAP :
we are in this together.. we can take it slowly there is nothing to rush here. There is a whole life time ahead of us ... Ram cupped her cheek.. and brushed her hair on her forehead , then kissed it. He then pulled her gently into his arms. Held her tightly... She felt happiness flood her body worries leaving her, she felt cherished, she felt protected... she felt completed .. It just felt right !!!!
PART 12
Loves does not happens once, it keeps happening !!
So dear I love him that with him
All deaths I could endure
Without him, live no life – William Shakespeare
So true. Priya Re read the verses... so true . She never knew what life was before Ram. Now Ram was there.. her life seemed to feel complete . she had a life ,but she never knew what she missed until Ram came into that life. With him he bought happiness, unbridled joy and undying hope.
Her day started with her gazing at snoring ram sleeping next to her. It was so difficult to leave him and go to college , but Her classes started early. She always made it a point to let him sleep... .but there were days that Ram woke just before she left to college .Those days she would invariably end up late to college..A blush stole up her cheeks, remembering what made her late to college.
Today was one such days, but she escaped his wandering hands before it could wrecked her senses and mincemeat of her time sense. How could one touch make her lose her sense. That was something she could never understand.
They had settled into pattern domesticity that was comforting She readied Rams breakfast and lunch before she left to college . Ram worked from the quarters, he had all his perihelia’s set to his comfort. She tired joining him for lunch , but something or other would always lead them to the bed . So she stopped going to lunch , to avoid temptations he offered. Ram was not happy about it , he did pout and tired all tricks in trade to bring her back to lunch. But she resisted his requests. but it was not easy. Every time she thought about him. She wanted to run into his arms..but work.. She knew his work would also get affected. She didn’t want to. She knew how much his work was important . She didn’t want to be a distraction.
She left college as soon the bell rang , like child running home from school. He would always wait for her with hot tea and snacks ... Her Mr Kapoor was very diligent , from a man who didn’t know what gas stove was now knew how to make not only tea but super aloo pokaras...
They had tea, discussed they respective day’s at office, then make prepare dinner together. They would then go for a walk . Come back have their simple dinner, catch some TV go to bed .
Night was always filled with desire, passion and need. But love was never spoken of but it was there in their hearts ...they never found the words to spell it out, but both ached to hear it but both refused to say it .. Their hurt their fear their imperfection held them back waiting and hoping ... for the words of love .. Sometimes when they just slept in each other arms, their heart beating in one rhythm it felt so right . That sense closeness was indescribable.. it just felt right , nothing more was wanted but ....
Questioning student woke her to reality pulling her wavering mind back. She continued her class till her session was over.. This was her last session for the day , In another two weeks time her semester would end so also her term with Pilani . She closed the session 5 minutes earlier than usual. She went to staff room collected her books, said the customary hi and byes without sounding impatient. Tired not check her phone.. she knew he would have given her 10 missed call and 50 or so messages , he usually does. But when she finally got around to look at the phone there was not even one single call or message . That was surprising she thought to herself . Then a fear climbed in was he sick .. .. But he was fine in the morning.. In fact more than fine ...
Her wonderings and worry made her hurry up the path to her Quarters, hoping he was fine. She reached , the quarters, found the door open, went in calling him. Mr Kapoor ... she called she still had not got into her habit of calling him by his name ...Ram. It was difficult somehow for her.
I am here he said ... calling out to her.
When is she going call him by his name ? most probably never. He thought himself with a smile . He tired to change her habit, but after sometime left it . He started liking the way he called him. Mr Kapoor there was something in the way her voice called out made it sound sexy... he loved it now. Anyway, he did know when and how she would call him Ram.... he smiled .
Get Ready we are going out ?
Where she asked
Somewhere special he answered .Arey baba hurry up na...
Where? She asked again
Surprise . he said
Tell na ? she asked with her best puppy face
No .. just get ready he said, placing feathery kiss on the nose
Okay .. Just tell me where so that I can decide what I can wear
Wear something casual .
Okay ...but what .
Casual … Go now.... Or better I can help you to dress.. His eyes crinkled with mischievous glint ..
No Thank you .. I Can manage
I know you can manage .. Just trying to be helpful...
So kind of you I will manage swatting his hands of her . She rushed up to room to get ready . she didn’t know where he was taking her , but knew it would be something special . She pulled out her jeans and a kurti and came down..
He saw her coming down , her Long black hair covering her shoulders, in a simple jeans which accentuated her long legs ,she looked years younger than she really was, her smile bought happiness to his heart. He watched her face and was enchanted by her smile. A pride, almost of ownership, flowed through him. She was his wife.
Chalooo.. let us go he said offering her his hand . where ? she asked again … just around the corner he said … Exchanging glances now smiling at each other, they walked down the steps to the concrete purpose built path around the lake, now the moonlight was shining off the water. Walking round to find a secluded spot, taking off her slippers walking bare foot over the grass. They arrived a quite discrete spot where nobody could see them. Away from the hustle of the busy University complex, sat listening and watching the water ripple across the lake. As if she was talking to the moon reflecting down on the water.
Sitting down on the grass, cuddling up to one another, enjoying the moment. He began to play with her hair, curling it around his finger, releasing it then watching it spring back into place.
Looking and watching her, brushing the hair out of her face, only for him to lean in and kiss her on the lips. His fingers taking hold of her hand, only to entwine his fingers around hers.
They watched the night envelop everything about them, and they couldn't even see each other's faces, just their silhouettes. The stars came out to twinkle brightly in the blackness of the firmament. They talked about themselves, learning to become more comfortable with each other as the time slipped by.
Love. What a funny emotion, Priya thought. It's physical, and it's emotional. It's delicious lust, and at the same time it's emotions for which there are no words. At least that was how she felt about Ram . But Ram had never said it. Not even in the deepest throes of passion had he uttered the word love. The closest he had come was to say he liked her. So he was fond of her. It was something to build upon, wasn't it?
Hoped filled her heart
He was holding her hand. It had been lousy life without Priya and he had realized with shock that he didn't like being without her at all. He needed her he needed her love, it was difficult for for Ram kapoor to admit it.In his life he could never believe that he would need someone so much .. because all his life he never had anybody whomever responded to his needs or cared for him as much has Priya cares for him .Still, while she seemed to enjoy the passion they shared, and was an enthusiastic bed partner, she had indicated that she cared for him. She didn’t say she loved him. Maybe she didn't. Maybe it was just all about the sex, and for her family . Well, he could live with that if he had to, couldn't he? He didn’t know, for sure now. He wanted more from her , at same time he didn’t know he would ever good enough for her. His past still haunted him.. Will Priya accept with his past ? he didn’t know.
He didn’t want his thoughts of his past to intrude his present… He wanted his present too much to allow his misdeeds to hamper it .. Priya He said trying bringing something which would allow to plan for their future happiness
Priya , I have planned something tomorrow.. for you birthday. I want you to come with me tomorrow.. it is small thing now. But it is something close to your heart. I know you would like it .
What is it Ram..
That will be another surprise …
My My .. so many surprises … Are you trying woo me now ..? she asked
He hoped he was not blushing he didn’t want to appear like 18 years old boy asking his girlfriend out for date..
No No.. it just it is your birthday I don’t know what to get you .. so I thought of this. Please don’t ask what again please… let it be suprise
Okay … Will do .. Now can we go and have our dinner I think It is getting late…
We need not go anywhere I Have got our dinner here … Yes showing off a picnic basket ….
My My Mr Kapoor.. is all prepared …. I like it
They opened their picnic basket , opened the container.. It was simple meal pasta, salad and for dessert a tiramisu cake .
He smiled, thinking what beautiful One month it has been .
"Why are you smiling?" she asked him.
"I was thinking about something How wonderful this one month has been ." Then he told her.
"And that made you smile because . . . ?"
Putting plates away into the basket
"Because I realize that what began for us a One months ago as one thing is, at least for me, morphing into something entirely different," Ram said softly. And his eyes engaged her eyes.
Priya felt a warm wave of pleasure sweep over her. "For me too," she admitted, ignoring the blush spreading over her cheeks. It had become a fact of life: Ram Kapoor could make her blush.
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Priya before all this I wanted tell you something ,there has been things in my past That you need to know..
Yes .. Priya was happy that Ram was at last opening up to her , that would mean he at last felt something for her ..
He stopped as he saw Ghan shyam walking across the lawn towards them .
Priya was disappointed ..
But looking at Ghanshyam both realized something was definitely wrong …
Ghanshyam was trembling there was fear written all over him , Madam. Sorry I disturbed you , but I had no time to wait … I need Sirs help.
Nahi Ghanshyam … kohi batah nahi .. kya hua
Jeee, Meri bacchi bouth bimar hai … Sirji .. Please help ..
Kya Hua use.. Ram asked
Pata nahi .. Use teez Bukar hai Sirji … Bukar uthar tha hi nahi
Apni Dr ko deekhya . Ram asked
Aahan ji deekhaya .lekin bukar uthar tha hi nahi .. Mujhe kuch samaj nahi ha raha hai . Isileeye I came here sir, to ask you whether you can help me ? that hospital… sir ji
Of course .. Ram said Wait I will make arrangements. Any way it was going to function from tomorrow.. …
Ram immediately moved away, to call somebody .
Priya who was watching this exchange Didn’t understand anything , She asked Ghanshyam.. what was this hospital they were talking about
Madamji , apko pata nahi , Ram sir jo purani dispensary than a use poora renovate kar diya . aur uske pass ek Hospital araha hai , baccho keliyee aur ek maternity ward bhi ahar raha. Un hone purani dispensary me ab sab kuch lab bhi , 2 duty doctors 2 nurses aur 4 consulting specialist dr bhi hai hafte 2 baar ane wale hai. Jo naya hosipital haina … jisk bhi kaal kaam shuru hone wala hai .
Yeh sab kab hua .,, Priya asked puzzled .. She had no clue .. Ram had not told her anything why…
Ghanshyam, ek din ram sir Ghar me akele the ap class me the madam, Ram ji passwali goan dekhne ko kaha , meri choothi thi us din, tho mein gya sir ko goan dekhe ne .. tab Ram sir goan ke sweedha ke bare pucha, aur delha dispensisary kis hal me tha tho un hone mujhe bataya ki.. ve kuch karenge goan keliya.. bas agale din kaam shuru hogaya.
Ghanshyam ji Ram Called , Apni bacchi ko mere car me le jayee.. Dr wahan honge .. he will help you.. jobi hi test hai wahan kardenge… aaj raath ko hi Delhi se child specialist aa raha hai jo apki bacchi dekh lega… So don’t worry.. Sab kuch theek who jayega
Thank you ji… Thank you ji…
Chale ye me car lekar atha hoon.. ap bacchi ko lekar aana..
He then turned around.. Priya .. I am sorry .. I wanted to tell you about this.. This was supposed to be surprise Priya…..
This was my birthday gift … She asked amazed at the depth of thoughtfulness of this man.. He floored her completely.
Yes… This hospital is going to be model hospital… This is part of larger mission. I wanted to establish the same kind of hospital across the India.. this way I wanted health care to reach every corner ..its health for all initiative to make preventive and primary healthcare accessible to the underprivileged and vulnerable sections of society. To provide primary and preventive health care to the poor and vulnerable classes of the population .This will be low cost model.. funded by Kapoor Industries ,by this we will reduce economic burden for primary healthcare. At same ensure best health care for all. I will be establishing Kapoor Health fund a philanthropy hand of Kapoor Industries. 10 % profit of Kapoor Industries will be invested in this . I have been working Government machinery … to move into next circle… So tomorrow was the beginning… the first unit of “ Swastha “ will be inaugurated tomorrow.
This is wonderful… Seriously I have never received such wonderful thoughtful present ..I just know what to say ,.. She stepped forward held his hand .. she was overwhelmed with emotions. She touched his cheek softly , looked deep into his eyes and said Thank you “”
Before he could say , his cell rang… He looked at her said I have to go he said take the child I will call .. about how the child is..
He left running towards the car to pick up Ghanshyam and his child
She stood there thinking How much she this man !!
Ram came back late in the night , she felt him slipping next to her, she turned to ask him why he had didn’t call, she turned to see him, there was something in his eyes which stopped her from asking.. In fact made her heart clench dreaded flooded her heart . His eyes held pain of thousands death..
Ram what happened is everything okay .. is the child okay . Yes he said through his clenched teeth.. thank god she is fine… then what happened..
I need you .. Please Priya I need you .. please don’t ask me anything .. I need you .. he said . S
he opened her arms to him, he came into it . like starving man .. Then kissed her .. When he pressed his lips to her. The familiarity of her scent and touch were as much like coming home . He wanted to tell her of much he loved him, he knew now that he would be never be able to tell her.. this was his last chance he had to show her how much he loved her .
He made love to her with all the sweetness and need.. it moved her heart.Their first coming together had been sizzling and turbulent, their passion escalating out of control.But tonight, knowing how full her heart was for him, added another dimension to their lovemaking that had her bursting into tears when she climaxed.
I love you," she blurted. "So much. I feel as if my heart's too full to contain it. I know it was not supposed to part of our deal but….
He stopped her words with a finger. With a stunned look in his eyes, he exhaled harshly. Oh god .. Priya .. he said .. hugged her closely .. I am sorry he said , hugged her closely .. I am so sorry ….
Tears slipped from her eyes… He kissed every tear , made love to her again.
The next day morning she woke up , there was bunch of roses at the side table with a note ..
Saying Happy birthday Priya!!!!
I am going back to Mumbai , today . I didn’t have the courage to say goodbye to you, I hate myself for what I did to you. Believe me Priya when I say , you are better off without me. I don’t deserve your love .The best birthday gift I could ever give you is me staying out of your life . . I am sorry .If you need anything just call me let me know..
RAM
And Priya crumbled down with the letter gripped in her hand
It happened one Night ...
Author
Priya Ramkumar
2 comments:
Interesting
again they two separated
Good one...Last para was unexpected :/ why Ram leave her ?
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