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Then came to see pool to sit on pool bench for some time, my legs were starting to hurt .. I took the seat farthest from the pool… then I saw Ram standing there talking to beautiful lady in bikini.. more than talking he was laughing . and the girl showed her happiness by hugging Ram…
How dare she ? who is she ? why is she hugging my husband
PART 11
PRIYA's POV
How dare she ? who is she ? why is she hanging on to my husband as if he is clothes hanger..
Why was I angry, I was expecting this wasn’t I ? Why should I be bothered about who he is talking to … It shouldn’t .. But it did… it did hurt to see him talking to another girl smiling at her the way he smiles at me… the crinkle of the eye the curve of those lips everything that makes my heart flutter.. it pains to see a woman throwing her arms around my ram.
Ram turned and looked at me and waved. The women also turned and waved. I just nodded my head . Ram took hold of the women hands pulled her along towards me presumably to introduced me to her.
The women was beautiful, she wore no make up but everything in her suggested that she was well groomed . She was exuded a senses of confidence inherent with women of such beauty.
Priya let me introduce you to my friend Shruthi …. Or Should I say Dr .Shruthi Rao said ram turning towards her with a dazzling smile
Come of it Ram , don’t be so formal you can always call me Shush…. You have been calling shush from the time we were in school.
Priya , Shruthi studied with me and Vikram in the same school… One day by mistake we saved her from some bullies in school… from that the day this pest has latched on to us… always followed us where we went,…
Hey Ram !! who are you calling a pest , How many times you guys used me to pass some love note or other to some girl in school.. didnt I do all that dirty work for you guys…and how many times I have saved you and vikram from getting caught … for that you guys owe for next 7 life.
Priya !!! this husband of yours promised to marry me when I grew up !!!.. Now look he has gone married you leaving me .. breaking a promise .. Really Ram how can you ditch me like this
They continued their batter as if I was no longer there… I had become invisible. But I was still stuck with last part of the conversation. I heard . Did Ram want to marry Shruthi?
then I suddenly heard Shruthi calling me .. hey priya are you okay ???? you seemed to dreaming ?? Hmmmm interesting !!! … Wait !Wait you guys just got married na..
Yes Ram said Day before yesterday…
Oh Sorry !! Priya , I am such Kabab me Haddi .. you guys need some privacy and I am being such spoilsport ..
No No … I said
Shruthi.. continued.. You know what priya after these guys finished school . They were so busy with college that it was big thing for them to keep in touch with a school going kid like me .... I was just two years younger than them.. these two always treated me like cumbersome kid sister… .. but one thing I need to tell about these two… these have been always been there when I ever I wanted .. Only After I left for US 10 years ago did I lose touch with them …
Another thing You and neha I have to tell have the best guys in the world as husbands… By the way Ram where is vikram.. it has been ages since I talked to him.
Ram watching Shruthi with an affectionate smile Once again both of them were gaily talking about their old friend and memories. This time it didn’t make me feel like outsider,Somehow, I liked Shruthi better now. She was friendly very open and genuine. May be after she said sister.. I don’t know She give me a glimpse of a young Ram.. A saviour, always ready to protect .
I wanted got to my room .. I got up from the pool chair excused myself saying I wanted to go the room.. Ram wanted to accompany me to the room I said no.. I will manage . For second I saw hurt of rejection in his eyes but Shruthi called Ram he quickly hid his hurt with a smiled answered her … She wanted to show Ram something… urgent. Ram said okay .
I left them two talking walked to my room to some rest . I came to room… wanted to lie down for sometime .. I Didn’t know when I eye closed .within minutes I was sleeping
RAM's POV
Though I was talking with Shruthi My eyes was following her.. Hoping that she will turn back and call me.. But as usual she never did.
You love her no ? Shruthi asked it was more of a statement than a Question
Yes ! I said quietly
Shruthi .. She also loves you so much… trying to put salve to my hurt.
I again said quietly I know
Shruthi continued .. She needs time Ram to overcome her insecurities.. please be patient with.
I know. I said
Then I turned around And What the hell was that about me promising you that I will marry you !! when did I do that
Okay !! Okay take a chill pill… I was gauging Priya’s reaction. And to check how much she loves you..
You could have asked me na…
No I had to do it like this.. When I mentioned about the marriage , there was a hurt and her insecurity surfaced. The minute I said sister she was relaxed, her smile was more genuine.. She left you with me and went too the room only after I clarified my stand with you ,Did you notice that?
She is very possessive about you … whatever she may say .. she cant think another person in you life.
Hmmmm !! intelligent When did my shush become so intelligent??
Hey I was always this intelligent .. only you guys didn’t know it .. otherwise how would I have been in Harvard University . published so many paper and researches….
Okay Okay !! agree , that is also true… When did Mr Shah mentioned to me about Dr Shruthi Rao I didn’t know it was you.. I really didn’t connect up.. I thought it was someone very old stiff prim….
Hey !!. she hit me in my arm
By the way who is this Rao.. your father name was Khanna na …
My ex husband!! Shruthi sobered
What you married ?? and divorced ?? you didn’t tell us !!!
Sh!! Can you calm down., I was stupid and young when I married I was doing under grad program when I met Dr Rao.. he was my professor way to older than me … Fell in love more than love I was infatuated with him.. we married .. after initial lust period we just didn’t connect anyway.. after something that also faded out. After Sunil got a offer from University of Oxford. For prestigious dean of a department so he wanted to go … I didn’t want to leave my research so we decided to part way as friends. And I always like short surname Rao.. instead my father’s Krishna Charan kanthilal Khanna so I kept it .. anyway who is going to be bothered now my mom is also not alive and I never knew my father so why the hell should I keep his surname
Shruthi I am sorry for not keeping in touch.. why didn’t you not tell us .. I and vikram would have come .
I know Ram !! but how along can I keep calling you guys for help… any way the whole thing was a mistake !!! so leave it I have no grudges . In fact both of us Sunil and I were in fact relieved that we were out of it .. So I am okay . I feeling free and I am happy.
Shruti , Just tell me on thing how did you meet Mr Shah my lawyer..
There was this case, of serial killer in US. I helped the FBI solving.. The Killer was convicted after my expert evidence. This was a national prime time news 6 months ago in US. Piyush just contacted me asking for my help . I didn’t want to help. But Piyush was persistent. I didn’t want to get involved.. but when Piyush mentioned your name.. I could not say no.. I coordinated my Chennai conference and this case .and came down here
So you knew before you came it was my case and still did not contact me why I asked Shruthi
Shruthi answered with impertinent Yes!! I wanted to surprise you Ram, by the way you didn’t even call me for your marriage. So tit for tat
Shruthi come on yaar .. You know the situation.. I didn’t even know that Priya would ever agree to marry. Till the last moment I was not sure if she would not ran away from me. So I wanted get things done as fast as possible with minimum Shor sharabha. And the press is another big menace , So…
Shruthi nodded her head. Hugged me said I understand. We will nail that guy .. I will help you and priya .I owe you
Thanks Shruthi .
Kya yaar Thanks… Not necessary at all. You have helped me so much financially and emotionally .This degree I have is because of you. If you had not sponsored my education where would I be. Chod na yaar
Now tell me I need to know everything from your side Shruthi as usual waved my thanks of and continued I have read about the case but there are things which case files never tell. I want to know everything . about your marriage and about Priya. is priya the same girl your dream girl na … me and vikram teased you about years ago.
Yes!!.. I started talk about priya
After 3 hour
I came back to my room after 1 hour, Priya was sleeping . I was more confident now that my relationship with Priya will be on the right track after talking to Shruthi. Shruthi pointers helped me understand that Priya is not immune to me and She is right now very confused with needs and emotions. I need to give her some time . I was ready to give her the time and strength . I Opened my laptop started working.. I was so engrossed in my work That I didn’t notice the how time had passed.. Priya was still sleeping … it was 4 pm in the afternoon We both missed our lunch. I didn’t have a heart to wake her up sh ewas sleeping so soundly. I was gazing at her when a the room phone rang. I picked before it could ring the second time
And answered. It was Vikram and Neha calling to tell they had arrived. I had requested both of them to come as I required Vikra's support in handling the case and Neha support in handling Priya. I hoped priya would be more comfortable with me if all of them are around
I hoped she would open up with Neha and Shruthi around . Priya requires friends around whmo she believe will trust her and stand by her no matter what. Shruthi said that she work on Priya’s confidence and trust issue. Told me directly not to try anything funny without consulting her. And especially not to touch her without priya’s consent
I kept the phone down as I just acknowledged vikram with a okay.. I didn’t want priya to be disturbed. But Priya’s sleep was broken she looked up , groggily looked around trying to figure time and place.
Hi I said
Priya got up Hi How long have I been sleeping? She asked Then looked at her watch Oh god three hours. Sorry
I stalled her saying it’s okay.. if you want to sleep some more please sleep
Priya said :No No .. I am fine …, Can I ask something she asked
Oh Sure I answered
Did you have lunch ? When I shook my head with a no . She continued Can I order something light .. I know it is too late for lunch something like sandwiches would it be fine ?
Sure !! I will order it I said I picked up the phone ordered for both of us As I was also hungry. As I finished ordering .
Priya asked : Why didn’t you have anything ?
No I answered I was working as I forgot the time .. So when I finished and looked up it was 4 pm.
Oh okay she said . as She got up from the bed said .. let me go and freshen up before the sandwiches come. She walked to her suitcase
Priya .. I called her .. Just wanted to tell you that Neha and Vikram have come down. They will be joining us for dinner tonight . Before that we planned to go down to the beach just for a walk .Do you want to join us ?
She just nodded her head went inside the Bath room. Holding on to the change clothes as protective shield.
I just switched on TV .. to while. away my time ..
The sandwiches .. came . Priya came out of the bathroom few minutes later. She wore a light blue top with plain white long skirt. She looked fresh the blue top accentuated her colour , She had the biggest, most expressive black eyes, and the most fabulous hair, but it was pulled into a knot with some sort of clip and her dress covered her from chin to toe, only small part of her shoulders were visible . Little drops of water fell there from her wet hair forming a path that I wanted to follow. I dreamed of that path everyday . Oh god not again.. Cant do this I need to remember Shruthi ‘s advice forced my mind to think of something else other than where it was going..
She sat down quietly and served herself and me sandwiches and waited for me to start eating .. the whole meal Priya didn’t utter single word. I grew too restless I said Priya ..
.. I know you don’t want to talk to me.. please I know I forced you to come down to Chennai. But I had no choice
She Said I know
I never expected any reply from her . Okay I replied unsure of what else to say . So Said… Okay can we leave .. Neha and Vikram are waiting for us.
She nodded her head and got up .
I went ahead opened the door for her . She slowly walked out . I followed her on the stone path which connected our private villa to the Resort. Cool evening breeze tinted with fresh smell of the sea blew over us. I slowed my walk so that could match Priya’step.
We reached the gate which was the resort ‘s entrance to the beach . the Guard opened the gate for us .
We walked through it reached soft brown sands of the beach. I offered my hand to Priya I know she would find it hard walking on the sands of beach . There was every chance of her rejecting it .. but still I offered.
She looked at me once . hesitating for minute. Then to my surprise she took my arm.
I was the stunned.. I didn’t expect it .. I was the most happy . My face unknowingly took on smile and there was added zing to my walk .
There was no one on the beach , neha vikram and shruthi had not arrived yet. As this was a private beach entry was restricted only to the guest of the hotel .
I looked at the beach except for few Catamarans boats on the far end of the beach there is was nothing but soft sands and deep blue sea. The Silence was only marred by the voices of the waves lashing the beach .
I was happy … Happy is very small word to express the feeling I was now experiencing. I was with the women I love at place where there was nothing but us, it was most beautiful moment I wanted keep reliving this moment for ever more. My another hand covered priya hand which was holding my arm. I looked down to see her, she was also equally enamoured by the beauty of the sight of the endless sea and soft sands of the beach. I don’t how long we stood there . We just stood there taking in the beauty and the peace and revelling in the silence of the moment ,of that most beautiful spot of the earth.
Distant sound of the laughter, told me our moment privacy was over. Turned around to see Neha , Vikram and Shruthi walking towards us . Priya also realised they were coming slowly tried to remove her hand from my arm . I didn’t want to let her go . but I had to ….
Neha ran forward , Hugged priya first and then me..
Neha being her usual self started her barrage of question
Hey Ram !! why didn’t tell us about shruthi. ??
Before I replied … Shruthi said.. It was my surprise neha ji!! I wanted surprise all of you .. I successfully did it
Vikram joined in the conversation… Kya yaar ram yes musibath khan se leyaa reh pointing at Shruthi .. main ne soch ki hum ne us se peecha kab ka chudaliyee…
Shruthi.. gave her best menacing look …which made Vikram was smirking even more.
You know what Vikram this musibaht is now well know Psychologist.. and it takes onth for people get single appointment with me
Vikram added,,,”Don’t worry … lines will get shorter when they come to know who it is that actually treating them.. Iam sure it is the only intial craze .. once they get to know you.. I am sure appointment sheet will start going empty.
Neha !! Look at your husband ,, you really have not trained him well at all….I thought after marrying you he would better.. he just got worse.
No Darling ! It just seeing you he behaves so badly .. What Can I do ?
Neha you toooo!! Kya yaar. Neha laughed hugged Shruthi ..
I looked at Priya she was also enjoying the banter.. she was smiling. I was happy that she was enjoying .
The evening which started at the good note.. continued. Vikram Neha and shruthi played in sea water . I and priya just stood beach watched them playing . Neha called out for us to join … I shook my head Knowing me and my dislike for getting dirty . she didn’t ask me twice. But Neha pulled Priya with her . At first priya was hesitant .. after few splashes of water from Neha and Shruthi... She joined them with gutso.
I never expected her to join them leave alone enjoy so much . Seeing her enjoying her self with them made me feel happy.
I think this is the first time I have seen her having so much Fun . I congratulated myself and my decision of bringing Priya here. This has proven to be boon. There has been a tremendous
Change in her.
After playing for about water for an hour. They came out drenched, I had ordered for towels for them. Vikram Neha and shruthi took their towels left for their room ,promising to join us as at beach side restaurant for the night’s dinner.
I walked towards Priya, who had come out of water last and was squeezing the water out of her hair and her skirt ,. offering me a delicious view of her bare calves. I quickly draped the large towel over her. My hand Stilled at her shoulder for a minute my eyes met hers .Her hair had come loose her clothes stuck to her like second skin, the clearly revealing each of her curves . I quickly turned away my head . I didn’t want to look at her. For the fear of not able control myself. I just held out hand for her hold.
“We should return to the room ,” I said gruffly, taking her arm to urge her back along the path.
Priya looked down and nodded her head , I was still too overset by the moment to think clearly. She walked silently along,
We reached the room I asked her go change. Made some excuse about wanting to check things out with Reception left as soon as I can .
I walked into bar … ordered for a scotch on the rocks . Sat with the drink that I never had .Waiting for my bearings to settle. After 1 hour , I decided I could no longer be in the bar, and need to go back to the room. I strolled down to the room schooling myself about way I should behave and trying think of topics to divert my attention from priya. I cant behave like love sick teenage who is under the spell of his hormones and testosterone, I have to behave like man Dammit!!
I knocked the door. The door opened a vision of beauty stood in front of me. Iwas just there looking at her she wore a red saree , it was beautifully draped across her body , her thick black hair spilled loosely from one side , lay gently on her shoulder, her jhumka and her bangles were only ornament she adorned . Her bhindi and beautifully kholed eyes where the only make up she wore…she wore nothing glamorous but her beauty still spellbounded. The lesson and training all the talk flew out of mind the moment I saw her .
Ram , please get ready and met us at the restaurant Neha Vikram and Shruthi are waiting for us . Vikram has been looking for you asked me couple of times where you were I told him I didn’t Know.
I felt guilty for not telling them where I was.
Priya didn’t question me , She left the room locking the door as she went out.
I came out of the daze… and stupor her beauty had created. I went in hurriedly to dress. I needed to join her for dinner
The Dinner was set on beach side lawn of Fisherman cove. There was not many guest , there was band playing music, guest were enjoying food with the great music. The Vikram ,Neha , Priya and Shruthi occupied the far corner table , left a seat next to priya for me . I hurried to join them for dinner.
Vikram asked where were you ? We have been searching for you. Priya especially was very worried she really panicked if you hadn’t come when you came , I think she would have sent me to the police station to file missing complaint.
I was guilty and was sorry I had caused so much stress but more than that I was happy that she was so worried for me. I turned and looked at Priya I said sorry. She didn’t meet my eyes , her eyes were downcast I was not able read her . She turned towards shruthi started asking her about her profession
Conversation continues , as usual the conversation where dominated by Neha and Shruthi each taking turns relate one stories after another of our school days and college some funny and some downright embarrassing. I wanted stop them from telling anymore sordid details of my youth but Priya seems to enjoying listening to my antics of my youth and childhood. My part in conversation was occasional smile of acknowledgement and watching priya.
Suddenly Neha blurted out about the girl I saw in Busstand and how I visited the same bustand for more than 6 months at same time hoping to catch the glimpse of the girl agian. Before she could blabber any more details. I cut in and suggested Vikram that the band was playing his and neha’s favourite song why doesn’t he take Neha for a spin on the floor. Vikram realising my tactics. Immediately pulled neha for the dance. Shruthi took the clue hurried towards the washroom. I was left with Priya
I looked at Priya not very sure how she would react if I asked her to dance with me. I summoned all my courage , asked Priya if she would like to dance. As expected she said no.
Even though I knew this would be her answer, but it hurt nevertheless.
Okay I said, I am going get myself a drink do you want something… She nodded her head again
I never felt more angry,, I dont know what I will do.. She talks to everybody otherthan me , she doesn’t look at me or talk to me sometime I just want to shake her and make her talk to me.. I didn’t want to stand here another minute fearing what I might do or tell her that make the situation worse that it is’. I just left saw shruthi on the way.. looking at me she asked what was the problem I said nothing I am going for a drink . Just keep priya company, anyway she seems to like your company more than me …. I said that to her walked off
PRIYA's POV
He left ., I looked up to see him going . I so wanted to dance with him , I wanted to be held by him. I know he was hurt, every time he comes near me sense of fear raids my heart . Emotions start playing up on me and confuse me. I miss him the moment he leaves me, but at same time I fear whenever he comes near I will lose control of my emotions once again behave like a loose women. But can’t stand the pain I see in Ram’s eyes every time I reject him. It tears me apart.
My contemplation was interrupted, with Shruthi ‘s hi
Priya !! are you okay , she asked sensing something was wrong.
Just Nothing I said trying to cover up.
Where is Ram ? she asked if she noticed my tears , she didn’t ask about them
I said He has gone to get a drink for himself
Good , let go to lounge have nice chat, this place is getting noisy . I can’t even hear my own voice
I smiled controlling my tears and got up . Walked with her to the lounge area. It was fairly deserted . We sat down on the lounge sofa comfortably.
She asked One question right now didn’t want to answer
You love him, na . What are you scared of ? is it Ram
No !! never..
Then , I know you love him , it very clear that you want him both emotionally and physically I can see it every time you look at him. You keep watching him with aching need when he is not looking but the minute he comes closer you shy from him . You don’t even talk to him
Has ram done anything to make you feel you can’t trust him ?
No Shruthi. I trust Ram more than anything . It is just myself I don’t trust . I don’t know how I can explain
Priya is this because of the Rajath
I was stunned how did you know , I asked Shruthi and then realised “’ Ram must have told you na
Not at first, I am helping in this case Priya . Your lawyer had contacted me to help him win the Case. My Field of expertise sexual offenders… So when I knew of Ram’s involvement in the case I offered my service. Even Ram didn’t know I was the expert who was engaged. He just came to know about it today. In the afternoon after you left I asked about the whole issue so I can get to know about the case. That is when he told me. Priya you need to trust me and tell me what happened for me to help you . I want you believe me when I say , I can help you overcome your fear. But for that I need you to trust me complete.
This fear is not healthy it will not help you. It is not normal. It not just affecting you but also Ram. So for both your sake’s please believe me
I knew Shruthi was right . I felt somehow she can help not because she was Ram friend but in this short while of knowing her I knew I can trust her as she seems to genuinely trying to help me. I slowly started talking about my nightmares
The Whole While I talked, Shruthi just listened to what I was saying , never interpreting me she just held my hand. Heard me out patiently
I don’t know How long I talked.. I talked and talked. After a long time I just stopped I had nothing much tell .It was as if dam opened up and rush of emotions came out in full force. I was spent . strangely I felt light
Shruthi silently offered me a glass of water. I drank it
Shruthi asked how are you feeling ? she asked softly.
I thought for second and said light.
Good she said, this is the first step towards healing you have taken the step. Just hold on to this courage and we will cross each hurdle as we go.
Priya … your fear and answer to how to overcome this fear is within you I only going to help you find those answers.. Today is just the beginning. We will take one step at time
What about ram I asked
Shruthi in turn asked me what about him… Are you asking me about relationship with ram is it ? It is upto you. What are you afraid of with Ram?
What he thinks of me? He may also think I am a tease or easy like Rajath said.
Has he said or has indicated he thinks you are that way? Shruthi asked
No… Infact he denied that he will ever think me of that way
Then there is no problem na shruthi said with a smile
But Rajath … I started
Priya tell me one thing Shruthi Interrupted. Whom do you trust more Ram or Rajath
Ram I said
Then that is it .
TRUST RAM In your relationship with Ram also take it one day at the time. Give your self some time. Don’t hurry yourself . I know Ram he will never force you into anything which you don’t want to . He loves you too much . Trust his love
Will you she asked . I just nodded
Come on lets go join the gang before Ram comes with police looking for you
We reached our table. Ram was the only one sitting . Neha and Vikram were still dancing.
As soon we reached our table . Shruthi said guys I am going to grab something eat and look for some partner to dance away into night. One more thing both of you don’t just sit come join us at dance party
She left
I turned and looked at Ram. He looked at me then turned away started watching others dance.
I didn’t know what made me do it . I got up from the seat . Went to ram , touched his arm asked will you dance with me
Ram was stunned . Then he smiled he took my hand ushered me quickly onto the dance floor.
Once in the center of the dance floor, He took me into his arms for the dance. I was stiff and awkward in his arms hold, . he gave me a moment, hoping I would relax, but I continued to move like a wooden doll, my jaw tense and eyes darting in search of escape. he finally asked, “So do you want to dance or not. I noded
He lead me into the rhythm of the music, my mind was awhirl with confusion. I was distracted from my thoughts when Ram’s hand moved up and then down my back in an almost unconscious, soothing caress. At least,I suspected that was how he’d intended it, but it had an entirely different effect on me. Rather than soothe, it sent shivers up my back to my neck. Confused by my body’s reaction, I instinctively stepped back to try to putsome space between us and bumped into someone.
Ram pulled me closer again and murmured, “I apologize. It has been some time since I danced. I am a little rusty at leading.”
I glanced over my shoulder to offer an apology to whomever I’d bumped, and then glanced sharply back to Ram. The small accident had been my fault for moving, yet he was taking the blame. Ram lowered his head and said with amusement, “ It is always the man’s fault. He is the one leading, the one who is supposed to be steering you safely around the dance floor.”
I bit my tongue and said nothing. Confusion was rife within me and it wasn’t just my emotions and fear also Ram proximity. He had spoken the words into my ear, his breath brushing the outer shell and sending startling shivers through me. I was also suddenly very aware of just how close he’d pulled me after the small accident. I was now plastered to him, my breasts against his chest, and his legs and hips brushing against mine with every step. He had also let his hand slip lower on my back so that it now crested the upper curve of my behind. All of this was stirring the oddest sensations in me, making me shiver and long to press myself tighter still against him. Then I realised the music had stopped.
“I think the music has stopped,” I managed to get out in a strangled tone even as my hands tightened on his hand and shoulder. Ram stilled, his hands and then straightened to glance around. The music had indeed stopped and most of the dancers had left the dance floor while others were still flowing past us to leave it as well.
So it seems he said. He removed his hands from around my hips. Took my hand , kissed it like the knight of the English era . His kiss was as light as feather but the impact of it felt upto to my toes. Then raised his head and smiled at me. At that point realised How much I wanted to see this smile on his face .
Then came to see pool to sit on pool bench for some time, my legs were starting to hurt .. I took the seat farthest from the pool… then I saw Ram standing there talking to beautiful lady in bikini.. more than talking he was laughing . and the girl showed her happiness by hugging Ram…
How dare she ? who is she ? why is she hugging my husband
PART 11
PRIYA's POV
How dare she ? who is she ? why is she hanging on to my husband as if he is clothes hanger..
Why was I angry, I was expecting this wasn’t I ? Why should I be bothered about who he is talking to … It shouldn’t .. But it did… it did hurt to see him talking to another girl smiling at her the way he smiles at me… the crinkle of the eye the curve of those lips everything that makes my heart flutter.. it pains to see a woman throwing her arms around my ram.
Ram turned and looked at me and waved. The women also turned and waved. I just nodded my head . Ram took hold of the women hands pulled her along towards me presumably to introduced me to her.
The women was beautiful, she wore no make up but everything in her suggested that she was well groomed . She was exuded a senses of confidence inherent with women of such beauty.
Priya let me introduce you to my friend Shruthi …. Or Should I say Dr .Shruthi Rao said ram turning towards her with a dazzling smile
Come of it Ram , don’t be so formal you can always call me Shush…. You have been calling shush from the time we were in school.
Priya , Shruthi studied with me and Vikram in the same school… One day by mistake we saved her from some bullies in school… from that the day this pest has latched on to us… always followed us where we went,…
Hey Ram !! who are you calling a pest , How many times you guys used me to pass some love note or other to some girl in school.. didnt I do all that dirty work for you guys…and how many times I have saved you and vikram from getting caught … for that you guys owe for next 7 life.
Priya !!! this husband of yours promised to marry me when I grew up !!!.. Now look he has gone married you leaving me .. breaking a promise .. Really Ram how can you ditch me like this
They continued their batter as if I was no longer there… I had become invisible. But I was still stuck with last part of the conversation. I heard . Did Ram want to marry Shruthi?
then I suddenly heard Shruthi calling me .. hey priya are you okay ???? you seemed to dreaming ?? Hmmmm interesting !!! … Wait !Wait you guys just got married na..
Yes Ram said Day before yesterday…
Oh Sorry !! Priya , I am such Kabab me Haddi .. you guys need some privacy and I am being such spoilsport ..
No No … I said
Shruthi.. continued.. You know what priya after these guys finished school . They were so busy with college that it was big thing for them to keep in touch with a school going kid like me .... I was just two years younger than them.. these two always treated me like cumbersome kid sister… .. but one thing I need to tell about these two… these have been always been there when I ever I wanted .. Only After I left for US 10 years ago did I lose touch with them …
Another thing You and neha I have to tell have the best guys in the world as husbands… By the way Ram where is vikram.. it has been ages since I talked to him.
Ram watching Shruthi with an affectionate smile Once again both of them were gaily talking about their old friend and memories. This time it didn’t make me feel like outsider,Somehow, I liked Shruthi better now. She was friendly very open and genuine. May be after she said sister.. I don’t know She give me a glimpse of a young Ram.. A saviour, always ready to protect .
I wanted got to my room .. I got up from the pool chair excused myself saying I wanted to go the room.. Ram wanted to accompany me to the room I said no.. I will manage . For second I saw hurt of rejection in his eyes but Shruthi called Ram he quickly hid his hurt with a smiled answered her … She wanted to show Ram something… urgent. Ram said okay .
I left them two talking walked to my room to some rest . I came to room… wanted to lie down for sometime .. I Didn’t know when I eye closed .within minutes I was sleeping
RAM's POV
Though I was talking with Shruthi My eyes was following her.. Hoping that she will turn back and call me.. But as usual she never did.
You love her no ? Shruthi asked it was more of a statement than a Question
Yes ! I said quietly
Shruthi .. She also loves you so much… trying to put salve to my hurt.
I again said quietly I know
Shruthi continued .. She needs time Ram to overcome her insecurities.. please be patient with.
I know. I said
Then I turned around And What the hell was that about me promising you that I will marry you !! when did I do that
Okay !! Okay take a chill pill… I was gauging Priya’s reaction. And to check how much she loves you..
You could have asked me na…
No I had to do it like this.. When I mentioned about the marriage , there was a hurt and her insecurity surfaced. The minute I said sister she was relaxed, her smile was more genuine.. She left you with me and went too the room only after I clarified my stand with you ,Did you notice that?
She is very possessive about you … whatever she may say .. she cant think another person in you life.
Hmmmm !! intelligent When did my shush become so intelligent??
Hey I was always this intelligent .. only you guys didn’t know it .. otherwise how would I have been in Harvard University . published so many paper and researches….
Okay Okay !! agree , that is also true… When did Mr Shah mentioned to me about Dr Shruthi Rao I didn’t know it was you.. I really didn’t connect up.. I thought it was someone very old stiff prim….
Hey !!. she hit me in my arm
By the way who is this Rao.. your father name was Khanna na …
My ex husband!! Shruthi sobered
What you married ?? and divorced ?? you didn’t tell us !!!
Sh!! Can you calm down., I was stupid and young when I married I was doing under grad program when I met Dr Rao.. he was my professor way to older than me … Fell in love more than love I was infatuated with him.. we married .. after initial lust period we just didn’t connect anyway.. after something that also faded out. After Sunil got a offer from University of Oxford. For prestigious dean of a department so he wanted to go … I didn’t want to leave my research so we decided to part way as friends. And I always like short surname Rao.. instead my father’s Krishna Charan kanthilal Khanna so I kept it .. anyway who is going to be bothered now my mom is also not alive and I never knew my father so why the hell should I keep his surname
Shruthi I am sorry for not keeping in touch.. why didn’t you not tell us .. I and vikram would have come .
I know Ram !! but how along can I keep calling you guys for help… any way the whole thing was a mistake !!! so leave it I have no grudges . In fact both of us Sunil and I were in fact relieved that we were out of it .. So I am okay . I feeling free and I am happy.
Shruti , Just tell me on thing how did you meet Mr Shah my lawyer..
There was this case, of serial killer in US. I helped the FBI solving.. The Killer was convicted after my expert evidence. This was a national prime time news 6 months ago in US. Piyush just contacted me asking for my help . I didn’t want to help. But Piyush was persistent. I didn’t want to get involved.. but when Piyush mentioned your name.. I could not say no.. I coordinated my Chennai conference and this case .and came down here
So you knew before you came it was my case and still did not contact me why I asked Shruthi
Shruthi answered with impertinent Yes!! I wanted to surprise you Ram, by the way you didn’t even call me for your marriage. So tit for tat
Shruthi come on yaar .. You know the situation.. I didn’t even know that Priya would ever agree to marry. Till the last moment I was not sure if she would not ran away from me. So I wanted get things done as fast as possible with minimum Shor sharabha. And the press is another big menace , So…
Shruthi nodded her head. Hugged me said I understand. We will nail that guy .. I will help you and priya .I owe you
Thanks Shruthi .
Kya yaar Thanks… Not necessary at all. You have helped me so much financially and emotionally .This degree I have is because of you. If you had not sponsored my education where would I be. Chod na yaar
Now tell me I need to know everything from your side Shruthi as usual waved my thanks of and continued I have read about the case but there are things which case files never tell. I want to know everything . about your marriage and about Priya. is priya the same girl your dream girl na … me and vikram teased you about years ago.
Yes!!.. I started talk about priya
After 3 hour
I came back to my room after 1 hour, Priya was sleeping . I was more confident now that my relationship with Priya will be on the right track after talking to Shruthi. Shruthi pointers helped me understand that Priya is not immune to me and She is right now very confused with needs and emotions. I need to give her some time . I was ready to give her the time and strength . I Opened my laptop started working.. I was so engrossed in my work That I didn’t notice the how time had passed.. Priya was still sleeping … it was 4 pm in the afternoon We both missed our lunch. I didn’t have a heart to wake her up sh ewas sleeping so soundly. I was gazing at her when a the room phone rang. I picked before it could ring the second time
And answered. It was Vikram and Neha calling to tell they had arrived. I had requested both of them to come as I required Vikra's support in handling the case and Neha support in handling Priya. I hoped priya would be more comfortable with me if all of them are around
I hoped she would open up with Neha and Shruthi around . Priya requires friends around whmo she believe will trust her and stand by her no matter what. Shruthi said that she work on Priya’s confidence and trust issue. Told me directly not to try anything funny without consulting her. And especially not to touch her without priya’s consent
I kept the phone down as I just acknowledged vikram with a okay.. I didn’t want priya to be disturbed. But Priya’s sleep was broken she looked up , groggily looked around trying to figure time and place.
Hi I said
Priya got up Hi How long have I been sleeping? She asked Then looked at her watch Oh god three hours. Sorry
I stalled her saying it’s okay.. if you want to sleep some more please sleep
Priya said :No No .. I am fine …, Can I ask something she asked
Oh Sure I answered
Did you have lunch ? When I shook my head with a no . She continued Can I order something light .. I know it is too late for lunch something like sandwiches would it be fine ?
Sure !! I will order it I said I picked up the phone ordered for both of us As I was also hungry. As I finished ordering .
Priya asked : Why didn’t you have anything ?
No I answered I was working as I forgot the time .. So when I finished and looked up it was 4 pm.
Oh okay she said . as She got up from the bed said .. let me go and freshen up before the sandwiches come. She walked to her suitcase
Priya .. I called her .. Just wanted to tell you that Neha and Vikram have come down. They will be joining us for dinner tonight . Before that we planned to go down to the beach just for a walk .Do you want to join us ?
She just nodded her head went inside the Bath room. Holding on to the change clothes as protective shield.
I just switched on TV .. to while. away my time ..
The sandwiches .. came . Priya came out of the bathroom few minutes later. She wore a light blue top with plain white long skirt. She looked fresh the blue top accentuated her colour , She had the biggest, most expressive black eyes, and the most fabulous hair, but it was pulled into a knot with some sort of clip and her dress covered her from chin to toe, only small part of her shoulders were visible . Little drops of water fell there from her wet hair forming a path that I wanted to follow. I dreamed of that path everyday . Oh god not again.. Cant do this I need to remember Shruthi ‘s advice forced my mind to think of something else other than where it was going..
She sat down quietly and served herself and me sandwiches and waited for me to start eating .. the whole meal Priya didn’t utter single word. I grew too restless I said Priya ..
.. I know you don’t want to talk to me.. please I know I forced you to come down to Chennai. But I had no choice
She Said I know
I never expected any reply from her . Okay I replied unsure of what else to say . So Said… Okay can we leave .. Neha and Vikram are waiting for us.
She nodded her head and got up .
I went ahead opened the door for her . She slowly walked out . I followed her on the stone path which connected our private villa to the Resort. Cool evening breeze tinted with fresh smell of the sea blew over us. I slowed my walk so that could match Priya’step.
We reached the gate which was the resort ‘s entrance to the beach . the Guard opened the gate for us .
We walked through it reached soft brown sands of the beach. I offered my hand to Priya I know she would find it hard walking on the sands of beach . There was every chance of her rejecting it .. but still I offered.
She looked at me once . hesitating for minute. Then to my surprise she took my arm.
I was the stunned.. I didn’t expect it .. I was the most happy . My face unknowingly took on smile and there was added zing to my walk .
There was no one on the beach , neha vikram and shruthi had not arrived yet. As this was a private beach entry was restricted only to the guest of the hotel .
I looked at the beach except for few Catamarans boats on the far end of the beach there is was nothing but soft sands and deep blue sea. The Silence was only marred by the voices of the waves lashing the beach .
I was happy … Happy is very small word to express the feeling I was now experiencing. I was with the women I love at place where there was nothing but us, it was most beautiful moment I wanted keep reliving this moment for ever more. My another hand covered priya hand which was holding my arm. I looked down to see her, she was also equally enamoured by the beauty of the sight of the endless sea and soft sands of the beach. I don’t how long we stood there . We just stood there taking in the beauty and the peace and revelling in the silence of the moment ,of that most beautiful spot of the earth.
Distant sound of the laughter, told me our moment privacy was over. Turned around to see Neha , Vikram and Shruthi walking towards us . Priya also realised they were coming slowly tried to remove her hand from my arm . I didn’t want to let her go . but I had to ….
Neha ran forward , Hugged priya first and then me..
Neha being her usual self started her barrage of question
Hey Ram !! why didn’t tell us about shruthi. ??
Before I replied … Shruthi said.. It was my surprise neha ji!! I wanted surprise all of you .. I successfully did it
Vikram joined in the conversation… Kya yaar ram yes musibath khan se leyaa reh pointing at Shruthi .. main ne soch ki hum ne us se peecha kab ka chudaliyee…
Shruthi.. gave her best menacing look …which made Vikram was smirking even more.
You know what Vikram this musibaht is now well know Psychologist.. and it takes onth for people get single appointment with me
Vikram added,,,”Don’t worry … lines will get shorter when they come to know who it is that actually treating them.. Iam sure it is the only intial craze .. once they get to know you.. I am sure appointment sheet will start going empty.
Neha !! Look at your husband ,, you really have not trained him well at all….I thought after marrying you he would better.. he just got worse.
No Darling ! It just seeing you he behaves so badly .. What Can I do ?
Neha you toooo!! Kya yaar. Neha laughed hugged Shruthi ..
I looked at Priya she was also enjoying the banter.. she was smiling. I was happy that she was enjoying .
The evening which started at the good note.. continued. Vikram Neha and shruthi played in sea water . I and priya just stood beach watched them playing . Neha called out for us to join … I shook my head Knowing me and my dislike for getting dirty . she didn’t ask me twice. But Neha pulled Priya with her . At first priya was hesitant .. after few splashes of water from Neha and Shruthi... She joined them with gutso.
I never expected her to join them leave alone enjoy so much . Seeing her enjoying her self with them made me feel happy.
I think this is the first time I have seen her having so much Fun . I congratulated myself and my decision of bringing Priya here. This has proven to be boon. There has been a tremendous
Change in her.
After playing for about water for an hour. They came out drenched, I had ordered for towels for them. Vikram Neha and shruthi took their towels left for their room ,promising to join us as at beach side restaurant for the night’s dinner.
I walked towards Priya, who had come out of water last and was squeezing the water out of her hair and her skirt ,. offering me a delicious view of her bare calves. I quickly draped the large towel over her. My hand Stilled at her shoulder for a minute my eyes met hers .Her hair had come loose her clothes stuck to her like second skin, the clearly revealing each of her curves . I quickly turned away my head . I didn’t want to look at her. For the fear of not able control myself. I just held out hand for her hold.
“We should return to the room ,” I said gruffly, taking her arm to urge her back along the path.
Priya looked down and nodded her head , I was still too overset by the moment to think clearly. She walked silently along,
We reached the room I asked her go change. Made some excuse about wanting to check things out with Reception left as soon as I can .
I walked into bar … ordered for a scotch on the rocks . Sat with the drink that I never had .Waiting for my bearings to settle. After 1 hour , I decided I could no longer be in the bar, and need to go back to the room. I strolled down to the room schooling myself about way I should behave and trying think of topics to divert my attention from priya. I cant behave like love sick teenage who is under the spell of his hormones and testosterone, I have to behave like man Dammit!!
I knocked the door. The door opened a vision of beauty stood in front of me. Iwas just there looking at her she wore a red saree , it was beautifully draped across her body , her thick black hair spilled loosely from one side , lay gently on her shoulder, her jhumka and her bangles were only ornament she adorned . Her bhindi and beautifully kholed eyes where the only make up she wore…she wore nothing glamorous but her beauty still spellbounded. The lesson and training all the talk flew out of mind the moment I saw her .
Ram , please get ready and met us at the restaurant Neha Vikram and Shruthi are waiting for us . Vikram has been looking for you asked me couple of times where you were I told him I didn’t Know.
I felt guilty for not telling them where I was.
Priya didn’t question me , She left the room locking the door as she went out.
I came out of the daze… and stupor her beauty had created. I went in hurriedly to dress. I needed to join her for dinner
The Dinner was set on beach side lawn of Fisherman cove. There was not many guest , there was band playing music, guest were enjoying food with the great music. The Vikram ,Neha , Priya and Shruthi occupied the far corner table , left a seat next to priya for me . I hurried to join them for dinner.
Vikram asked where were you ? We have been searching for you. Priya especially was very worried she really panicked if you hadn’t come when you came , I think she would have sent me to the police station to file missing complaint.
I was guilty and was sorry I had caused so much stress but more than that I was happy that she was so worried for me. I turned and looked at Priya I said sorry. She didn’t meet my eyes , her eyes were downcast I was not able read her . She turned towards shruthi started asking her about her profession
Conversation continues , as usual the conversation where dominated by Neha and Shruthi each taking turns relate one stories after another of our school days and college some funny and some downright embarrassing. I wanted stop them from telling anymore sordid details of my youth but Priya seems to enjoying listening to my antics of my youth and childhood. My part in conversation was occasional smile of acknowledgement and watching priya.
Suddenly Neha blurted out about the girl I saw in Busstand and how I visited the same bustand for more than 6 months at same time hoping to catch the glimpse of the girl agian. Before she could blabber any more details. I cut in and suggested Vikram that the band was playing his and neha’s favourite song why doesn’t he take Neha for a spin on the floor. Vikram realising my tactics. Immediately pulled neha for the dance. Shruthi took the clue hurried towards the washroom. I was left with Priya
I looked at Priya not very sure how she would react if I asked her to dance with me. I summoned all my courage , asked Priya if she would like to dance. As expected she said no.
Even though I knew this would be her answer, but it hurt nevertheless.
Okay I said, I am going get myself a drink do you want something… She nodded her head again
I never felt more angry,, I dont know what I will do.. She talks to everybody otherthan me , she doesn’t look at me or talk to me sometime I just want to shake her and make her talk to me.. I didn’t want to stand here another minute fearing what I might do or tell her that make the situation worse that it is’. I just left saw shruthi on the way.. looking at me she asked what was the problem I said nothing I am going for a drink . Just keep priya company, anyway she seems to like your company more than me …. I said that to her walked off
PRIYA's POV
He left ., I looked up to see him going . I so wanted to dance with him , I wanted to be held by him. I know he was hurt, every time he comes near me sense of fear raids my heart . Emotions start playing up on me and confuse me. I miss him the moment he leaves me, but at same time I fear whenever he comes near I will lose control of my emotions once again behave like a loose women. But can’t stand the pain I see in Ram’s eyes every time I reject him. It tears me apart.
My contemplation was interrupted, with Shruthi ‘s hi
Priya !! are you okay , she asked sensing something was wrong.
Just Nothing I said trying to cover up.
Where is Ram ? she asked if she noticed my tears , she didn’t ask about them
I said He has gone to get a drink for himself
Good , let go to lounge have nice chat, this place is getting noisy . I can’t even hear my own voice
I smiled controlling my tears and got up . Walked with her to the lounge area. It was fairly deserted . We sat down on the lounge sofa comfortably.
She asked One question right now didn’t want to answer
You love him, na . What are you scared of ? is it Ram
No !! never..
Then , I know you love him , it very clear that you want him both emotionally and physically I can see it every time you look at him. You keep watching him with aching need when he is not looking but the minute he comes closer you shy from him . You don’t even talk to him
Has ram done anything to make you feel you can’t trust him ?
No Shruthi. I trust Ram more than anything . It is just myself I don’t trust . I don’t know how I can explain
Priya is this because of the Rajath
I was stunned how did you know , I asked Shruthi and then realised “’ Ram must have told you na
Not at first, I am helping in this case Priya . Your lawyer had contacted me to help him win the Case. My Field of expertise sexual offenders… So when I knew of Ram’s involvement in the case I offered my service. Even Ram didn’t know I was the expert who was engaged. He just came to know about it today. In the afternoon after you left I asked about the whole issue so I can get to know about the case. That is when he told me. Priya you need to trust me and tell me what happened for me to help you . I want you believe me when I say , I can help you overcome your fear. But for that I need you to trust me complete.
This fear is not healthy it will not help you. It is not normal. It not just affecting you but also Ram. So for both your sake’s please believe me
I knew Shruthi was right . I felt somehow she can help not because she was Ram friend but in this short while of knowing her I knew I can trust her as she seems to genuinely trying to help me. I slowly started talking about my nightmares
The Whole While I talked, Shruthi just listened to what I was saying , never interpreting me she just held my hand. Heard me out patiently
I don’t know How long I talked.. I talked and talked. After a long time I just stopped I had nothing much tell .It was as if dam opened up and rush of emotions came out in full force. I was spent . strangely I felt light
Shruthi silently offered me a glass of water. I drank it
Shruthi asked how are you feeling ? she asked softly.
I thought for second and said light.
Good she said, this is the first step towards healing you have taken the step. Just hold on to this courage and we will cross each hurdle as we go.
Priya … your fear and answer to how to overcome this fear is within you I only going to help you find those answers.. Today is just the beginning. We will take one step at time
What about ram I asked
Shruthi in turn asked me what about him… Are you asking me about relationship with ram is it ? It is upto you. What are you afraid of with Ram?
What he thinks of me? He may also think I am a tease or easy like Rajath said.
Has he said or has indicated he thinks you are that way? Shruthi asked
No… Infact he denied that he will ever think me of that way
Then there is no problem na shruthi said with a smile
But Rajath … I started
Priya tell me one thing Shruthi Interrupted. Whom do you trust more Ram or Rajath
Ram I said
Then that is it .
TRUST RAM In your relationship with Ram also take it one day at the time. Give your self some time. Don’t hurry yourself . I know Ram he will never force you into anything which you don’t want to . He loves you too much . Trust his love
Will you she asked . I just nodded
Come on lets go join the gang before Ram comes with police looking for you
We reached our table. Ram was the only one sitting . Neha and Vikram were still dancing.
As soon we reached our table . Shruthi said guys I am going to grab something eat and look for some partner to dance away into night. One more thing both of you don’t just sit come join us at dance party
She left
I turned and looked at Ram. He looked at me then turned away started watching others dance.
I didn’t know what made me do it . I got up from the seat . Went to ram , touched his arm asked will you dance with me
Ram was stunned . Then he smiled he took my hand ushered me quickly onto the dance floor.
Once in the center of the dance floor, He took me into his arms for the dance. I was stiff and awkward in his arms hold, . he gave me a moment, hoping I would relax, but I continued to move like a wooden doll, my jaw tense and eyes darting in search of escape. he finally asked, “So do you want to dance or not. I noded
He lead me into the rhythm of the music, my mind was awhirl with confusion. I was distracted from my thoughts when Ram’s hand moved up and then down my back in an almost unconscious, soothing caress. At least,I suspected that was how he’d intended it, but it had an entirely different effect on me. Rather than soothe, it sent shivers up my back to my neck. Confused by my body’s reaction, I instinctively stepped back to try to putsome space between us and bumped into someone.
Ram pulled me closer again and murmured, “I apologize. It has been some time since I danced. I am a little rusty at leading.”
I glanced over my shoulder to offer an apology to whomever I’d bumped, and then glanced sharply back to Ram. The small accident had been my fault for moving, yet he was taking the blame. Ram lowered his head and said with amusement, “ It is always the man’s fault. He is the one leading, the one who is supposed to be steering you safely around the dance floor.”
I bit my tongue and said nothing. Confusion was rife within me and it wasn’t just my emotions and fear also Ram proximity. He had spoken the words into my ear, his breath brushing the outer shell and sending startling shivers through me. I was also suddenly very aware of just how close he’d pulled me after the small accident. I was now plastered to him, my breasts against his chest, and his legs and hips brushing against mine with every step. He had also let his hand slip lower on my back so that it now crested the upper curve of my behind. All of this was stirring the oddest sensations in me, making me shiver and long to press myself tighter still against him. Then I realised the music had stopped.
“I think the music has stopped,” I managed to get out in a strangled tone even as my hands tightened on his hand and shoulder. Ram stilled, his hands and then straightened to glance around. The music had indeed stopped and most of the dancers had left the dance floor while others were still flowing past us to leave it as well.
So it seems he said. He removed his hands from around my hips. Took my hand , kissed it like the knight of the English era . His kiss was as light as feather but the impact of it felt upto to my toes. Then raised his head and smiled at me. At that point realised How much I wanted to see this smile on his face .
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