Wednesday 21 January 2015

RAYA SS - Back In Time Part 9


RECAP

He took a deep breath. "If you ever repeat this to anyone else, Priya, I swear I'm going to - "

 I cut him off with a look. "Just tell me, Ram."

His eyes narrowed he staredown at his shoes before he spoke again.

  "My dad was imprisoned on a first-degree homicide charge when I was 13."



     Priya's Pov :

Someone sucked ur soul from ur body that's how I felt when I heard Ram speak, those words that I never, ever expected to hear from anybody....

  "What?"  I gasped.



Ram looked over at me, it suddenly seemed as if he was so much older than he actually was.Yes he saw Life all phase in his childhood

 A man doing two jobs, taking care of his mother, grandmother, and little sisters Ram wasn't anybody you could exactly call normal Person, that was for sure.

  "Do u Ever heard of Jai Talwar ?" Ram said very low, staring down at his feet

I replied. "No."

 Ram sighed, leaning forward on his knees so his head was resting in his hands. "Well, that B****D is my dad. And because my B****D dad, nutz and soumya have never met their father."

 I stared at Ram in horror.

What Ram had just told me  That had to be one of the worst things to ever happen to somebody.  a lot of things in this world I knew to be shameful , unpredictable, and awful. But this  

 "E-E-Excuse me?" I stammerd . "Did I hear that correctly?"

Ram getup and said again

"My mom met my dad in college. They went to Xavier  too. And my maa ended up getting pregnant with......with me so after graduation , they decided secretly wedding which ended up being a total disaster, because my dad is Animal. I don't have that much memories of that B****D,but ones I know That man was completely Animal. He used to kick my maa all the time, and even though I was really little, I tried to save her, and ended up getting kicked a lot myself. I hated that man"

 My heart was starting pumping fastly against my chest

all i could say is

 "What happened after that?" I said taking a deep breath.

. "My mom divorced my dad and got a court order against him, but that didn't stop him. He used to come, banging on our door and shouting on my mom let him see me, that she wasn't going to be able to take me away from him or something that. I don't really remember.

"But Nutz and soumya have a different father?" I said slowly.

Ram nodded,. "My mom met their dad when I was nine and Amarnath Ji  was sure as a better husband for my mom than my dad was."

 "So, he was the good man," I asked.

"Yes," Ram agreed. "He was. He cared about me and my mom a lot and used to help out at the restaurant as much as he could. He was a better father to me than my own own dad."

 I remained silent, tears falling from eyes travelling from cheeks to my lap I wasn't so sure if I even wanted to hear anything else about what had happened with Ram. And his little sisters and kk Aunty?

 I really wanted hug Ram to me as close as possible but

  "But nutz and soumya?" I asked, wiping my tears with my hands.

"A pleasant surprise," Ram sighed. "Don't get me wrong, I love my sisters to death, even if they are irritating little brats, but life sure as hell got ten times more complicated after they were born."

 I take deep breaths try to calm myself.

"What happened then?" I whisper.

 At first I thought that Ram didn't hear me. His back was turned to me, but I could tell that his head was tilted back so that he was looking up at the night sky. But a few moments, when he turned back, I could tell he had definitely heard me.

 "Forget it, Priya," he muttered, squeezing his eyes "Just forget it. You don't need to hear my sad little story."

 "Is that what you think?"

 "Think what?" Ram asked, his arms crossed over his chest.

"That I'm listening to you talk merely for my own enjoyment? That I'm going to be thoroughly overjoyed that nothing like that has ever happened to me before?" i blurt out

 I wanted to slap myself. What the hell i blurted priya u have to command over your mouth i said to myself

"You're not making any sense, Priya," Ram said. "So stop talking about things you don't understand. "

 yes, he was right.

"Look, Ram either way you slice it, it still wouldn't do you any harm to open up more like this," I said, clearing my throat

 "To Whom Priya , you, maybe ,Is that what you're getting at?"



Why not?" I said,. "We're friends, aren't we Ram?"

  "Oh, I suppose so," Ram sighed sounding a bit dramatic.

 Why he suddenly changed the subject?  he was trying to make atmosphere light but this ddnt work . Was what happened to his family really that bad?

"Are you okay, Ram?" I asked

 I lifted my head to look at him, and saw that he was  watching me with a curious look on his face

 "I'm fine," he answered. "What else would I be?"

"No, I mean, really," I said quickly. "Are you okay?"

 "Does it matter?" Ram asked

"Yes. It does."

  Ram stared down at me in surprise, his eyes wide, and I, like a stupid, blushed

"Fine," he said after a second "I'm fine."

  I was struck then with an idea. I don't know where the idea came from, but I decided to go with it.

 "Come with me," I said, grabb his hand.

Before he could object, I started dragging him to destination fixed firmly in my mind.

 "Where are we going?" Ram asked ??

I tried to keep my heart beat normal, since I was holding hands with him, and ignored his numerous  question. He asking in an annoyed voice where we were going, but I ddnt answer him. If I told him where we were going, he definitely would have rejected.

 "Oh, no," Ram shouted, taking his hand back from mine. "I am not going to the zoo with you."

"Come on, Ram!" I exclaimed,. "Thisi so much fun And you definitely need to have a good time at this time

 "But zoo?"

I stopped walking towards Central Park Zoo section and turned back to stare at Ram with wide eyes.

 Had Ram Kapoor seriously just whined?

"What?" Ram said

 I shook my head, holding up a hand to cut him off. "Come on, just for do me this one. I owe you for burning your hand earlier in morning."

 "Please, spare me," Ram said,. "You don't need to repay me with a trip to the zoo. I hate animals."

 I ignored him, dragging him again towards the ticket booth. Ram stood behind me, no doubt sulking as I handed over a 500 rupee note to the attendant and getting two tickets in return.

 "I swear, priya you'll be the death of me one day, ," Ram muttered

 I turned  back stared him and wanted to punch him or hug him at the same time. I supposed it was just a hazard of being around him, though.

I handed over my and Ram's tickets to the Ticket checker at the front gates, and then I had to start dragging him along again,

 Since it was a Sunday night, the place wasn't too crowded, but there were enough people there for Ram to start giving angry looks towards anyone that just so happened to glance in our way.

 I bit back a sigh. Typical Ram.

"Come on," I said,. "I've got somewhere I want to take you."

 "This better be worth my time, Priya," Ram grumbled, looking very irritated.

If you like penguins, there is .

I dragged Ram towards one of those stall  that sold snacks and drinks and bought the two hot chocolate. The girl behind the stand said

 "It's kind of a cold night for a date, isn't it?" she said as she poured our hot chocolate.

"What?" I gasped

 This girl thought Ram and I were dating? She thought that Ram was my boyfriend?

 "We're not dating," Ram said "We're just friends."

The girl stared two of us for a moment before she cracked a smirk, popping a straw on one of the hot chocolate cups. "okay Right. If you say so."

 i turned to brighter Red How more embarrassing was this night going to get?

 "You going to tell me where we're going now, Priya?"

I glanced over at Ram as

"We're going to see the penguins."

 That probably surprised Ram he stopped in his tracks to stare at me with his eyebrows raised. "Penguins?"

"You have a problem with penguins, Ram?"

 "No," he replied. "I just don't understand why on universe you would pay 500 rupees to see those annoyed  penguins."



 I shrugged. "They're cute ram not annoyed "

"Whatever,."

  We walked along in silence  towards the penguin. I used to come to Park and the zoo with my parents nearly every Sunday.. penguin had always been my favorite,There was just something about penguins that made me smile. Whenever we did go to the zoo, I used to spend most of my time there

 Just as I was expecting, the penguin house was empty when Ram and I arrived. There was a row of seats for visitors I took a seat Ram sat beside me  watching the penguins they were flapping around and squawking

 i saw ram ones he was lost in thoughts. so its right "People normally had long thinking sessions whenever they came to the penguin house",

my thoughts roaming around what Ram had told me

 It was hard for me to believe what happen but its true

After listen all I was feeling a little dizzy.

 How did Ram manage to live like this, with everything that had happened to him resting on his lil thin shoulders?

 "What are we really doing here, Priya?"

Ram's voice broke my thought i said. "What do you mean?"

 Ram gave me a wierd look. "The penguin house? Zoo? chocolate? What are you trying to do, make me feel better about awful things that have happened in my life?"

 Maybe.

"No," I said,. "I'm trying to make me feel better."

I wasn't close with my Papa but I still couldn't imagine not having him in my life. nutz and soumya were so little and they didn't  know their father. That was I couldn't even imagine.

And Ram....well, he didn't deserve any of this, either.

 "Don't ever pity on me," Ram said. "Just because bad things have happened in my life doesn't give you the right to feel sorry for me Priya."

i wanted to shout back at him about his word. but this is not right time i think

 "I don't feel sorry for you," I said. "I want to help you."

I was expecting him to fired back but  he just remained quiet. He stood up and walked over to the dust bin and throw his cup of hot chocolate in Bin and

 he sat back down beside me. And maybe it was just my imagination but he might've been sitting a little closer to me

 "You know what they say about penguins, right?" I said, staring over at Ram.

"Who" Ram asked

Scientist who else i said

"Please Enlighten me." ram said

 "Some penguins spend their entire lives searching for their mate. like perfect somebody and  they keep looking and looking and when they finally find them, they spend the rest of their lives together until they dies.....

. I was expecting Ram to burst out laughing on my stupid words but he didn't. I watched him from of my eye, waiting for him to say something

 "Humans aren't capable of loving like that," he finally said

"I don't think that's true," I said slowly,. "Maybe some people in world just never find their  penguins."

Ram turned to me with an exaggered look of fascination on his face. "Have you found your penguin, Priya?"

 "N-No," I blurted,. "But I'm only 22, so I guess I have a while, right?"

"Right," Ram agreed



So maybe the things between us were'nt perfect, and maybe I was never going to know what had happened between Ram and his father, but for now, it was a start, right?

We both Left for our homes i take a cab and plugg earphone and open music player and i dont know this song started i dnt know how it start but it was a perfect song and i so lost in song....


  "Zindagi gawa kar bhi jo zindagi mile
     Har khushi gawa kar bhi jo ek khushi mileeeeeeee,
     ohhhhhhh
     Zindagi gawa kar bhi jo zindagi mile
     Har khushi gawa kar bhi jo ek khushi mileeeeeeee,
     Woh mang lu tere liye tere liye tere liye tere liye tere liye

    Jism pak aankhon main bhar lu,
     Saans saans main shamil kar lu,                                                   Is Duniya main jaan gawa tujhe us duniyan main hashil karlu
     tere liye haan tere liye  tere liye haan tere liye



Ruh Se Ruh k dermiyan,
ishq k hai hazaraoo jahan
yaa khuda yah khuda mujhe de de agar ek jahan
woh mang lu tere liye tere liye..
tere liye.. tere liye..
tere liye.. tere liye..

Jism pak aankhon main bhar lu,
Saans saans main shamil kar lu,
Is Duniya main jaan gawa tujhe us duniyan main hashil kar lu,

so sitam uta kar bhi jo ek khushi mile,
so jannatain gawa kar bhi jo ek zamman mile..

Tere Sajdain main sar hai jhuka
tu hi ibadaat h tu hi dua
mauth k baad bhi jo mile bindagi ka sila
woh mang lu tere liye tere liye..
tere liye.. tere liye..
tere liye.. tere liye..

Jism pak aankhon main bhar lu,
Saans saans main shamil kar lu,
Is Duniya main jaan gawa tujhe us duniyan main hashil kar lu,
tere liye.. haan tere liye..
tere liye.. tere liye..

jism o jaan luta kar bhi jo ek hashi mile
Dil agar jala kar bhi jo roshni mile
woh mang lu tere liye tere liye..
tere liye.. tere liye..
tere liye.. tere liye..
tereeee liyeeeeeeee

janmo ka pyar tere liye
khushiyan hazaar tere liye
jannat dua tere liye
yeh jaan nisar tere liye
tere liye tere liye tere liye tere liye
tere liye tere liye tere liye tere liye
tere liye tere liye tere liye tere liye
haannnnn
tere liye tere liye
tere liye tereeeeee liyeeeee "


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3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Awsome part....need more :D

Unknown said...

Nice update..

Unknown said...

nice... pls update soon

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